Schism

Without naming names or specific occurrences, it's difficult to properly express my frustration and sorrow at recent events. I have to make the attempt though; it's killing me not being able to talk about it.

The feelings of my friends, people I've known for years and would never wish harm on, were nonetheless emotionally harmed by my actions. I do have an excuse--I was told something of a falsehood, or maybe I just misunderstood something my wife said--but I'm sure that knowledge doesn't ease the burn to those involved, and I'm not one these days for making excuses anyway. This was my fault. I should have done some fact-checking or something. Anything to avert this disaster.

The summary is basically this: I was under the impression that my wife wanted to pursue a friendship with my friend, but I was mistaken. This obviously resulted in an explosion of social awkwardness and frustration when the two approached one another about it. The details are well-known to all involved, so I don't need to go into them.

What I *do* need to do is apologize for my role in this. I made a mistake and inadvertently hurt my friend deeply. It quite nearly caused her husband to cut ties with me altogether; it required a copious amount of begging on my part to get him to even talk to me again. But I groveled and scraped until he spoke to me, and it was worth it.

I'd do about anything to make up for this. I just wish I knew what it was I needed to do.